Unbearable Pain: A Personal Battle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition often start with severe discomfort behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some people.

But consultant specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute therapy only. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Heather Wheeler
Heather Wheeler

A UK-based lottery analyst with over a decade of experience in probability studies and gaming strategies.